My 20th big day!!!!

oppprss...is almost a week past for my bday.....well..thanks for all the wishes n celebrations guys!!!!thanks!!!!erm.....this is the second year for me to celebrate my bday without my parents and my boyfriend....i still cant really used to celebrate it without them..fortunately, i have a group of friends who are willing to celebrate with me.....i have an unforgettable bday.......well,since this is the 1st 2X bday of mine..i have made myself a lovely cake.....haha...is copyright reserved..^^is a tiramitsu cake which i wish to bake since a long time ago....besides, i have become the "model" for showing the latest hairstyle for 2009 winter..thanks for my frenz who throw the cake on me...haha....

Lack of motivation

Is almost the end of the year....what have i done for this year?feel like my life is dull.....every day..i m doing the same things....i am wondering.....izit this is what i want?

Y cant i just learn from him....be simple...don't think too much..but...what is my goal?

Last Sunday...i have walked on the street....that is the 1st time i feel although the street was fulled of people...but i can't feel that i am part in it.....

I need the strength...Help!!!!!!